Freshman year of college...will it get better?

It gets so much better. You sound like me my freshman year... I felt so lost. I went to college with one of my best friends and a boyfriend. I broke up with my boyfriend because I decided I wanted "my own life" at college and then it just fell apart. When I was upset about the break up my friend went off and made her own. My roommate and I were super close too until I read IMs where she was talking about me behind my back. Sopre year I decided I would change my life by getting in a sorority... but the problem was, that wasn't for me either. I wasn't your typical sorority girl so I got out of that so worried that I'd made the wrong decision. My the middle of my sopre year I joined the Advertising club and got really involved with school and my major. I met some of my best friends in this club by joining exec board. I look back on my first year of school and laugh because it got so much better. But the thing is, at the time it felt like it never would... it really just takes time. I think it's great you are so dedicated to exams and school in the moment. I managed to get straight A's my freshman year because I put everything I had into my work since nothing else was going my way. Keep your chin up!